01.01.10
Beginning a new decade
Ten years ago, I was at the peak of my fandom phase, heavily engaged in writing fanfiction and moderating a mailing list, and without much at all happening in the way of spirituality. Five years ago, I was halfway through the House of Netjer’s beginners’ course, still not sure of where it was going to lead me, but finally starting to click with the sense of community and being very profoundly moved by some postings by the Imakhiu on the subject of service.
In the last decade, my father died, leaving me the only member of my family on this continent; I was divined a daughter of Bast, became a Shemsu, a Shemsu-Ankh, and then a w’ab priest; I left my job of thirteen years and found a new one, plus I started freelancing; I finished my epic fanfic and began work on an original novel; I started writing songs; I drove all across the United States by myself; I overcame two of the three addictions that had been plaguing me; I traveled to Japan and to Egypt. For much of the time I felt lost, anxious, blocked, and tremendously frustrated with my life, but I look back now and realize how much happened and how much I accomplished. And that realization gives me a sense of hope and a surge of positive energy for going forward into the next decade.
That said, my resolutions for 2010 are:
- to refine my service as a priest of my Mother
- to tend what’s mine to tend
- to make decisive progress in my writing
- to balance the opposites: strength and beauty, focus and freedom, discipline and joy
Dua Netjer! Nekhtet!